Round 2, here we go!

I'm sitting here watching Giuliana & Bill (a show on E!)... if you don't know, they are a celebrity couple who has experienced fertility issues as well and are now pregnant using a surrogate after many unsuccessful IVF attempts and one successful attempt that ended in miscarriage. Watching their story is really emotional for me because I can totally relate to what they are feeling. Giuliana said (before the surrogate pregnancy), "Why are we being punished?" Sometimes it really does feel like that. The rational part of my brain knows that this isn't true, but there is still a part of you that feels you've done something wrong to deserve this.

In good news, I had an ultrasound yesterday and am scheduled for insemination tomorrow (Wednesday). Our doctor said my eggs and lining look great and he wouldn't change my medication at all. He reminded me that it really does take up to 3 times so I shouldn't be worried yet.

Not sure if I have mentioned this in a previous post, but I have a little superstition regarding our doctors. There are 3 doctors in our practice and I have now had all 3 for at least one procedure. When Dr. Awadalla did our procedure, it was the one time it worked, so I really wanted him to inseminate this time. Luckily the schedules worked out so he will be there tomorrow to actually do the procedure! Yay! I know its stupid but when you are in such an uncontrollable situation, you will look for anything to control :)

So we should know something in about 2 weeks. We will keep you posted!

Take 2

So our first attempt has been unsuccessful.

We are very disappointed and extremely sad. I'm not really sure what else to say at this point. I'm so tired of counting days, of alternating between hope and hopelessness. I'm just really tired of it all. But, on to round 2 we go. Should know again by the end of June. Thanks for everyone who is keeping us in your prayers.