Next Steps

I thought I'd fill everyone in on what has happened since Tuesday.

Chris and I, as well as many of you, are still kind of stunned I think. We are trying to process what has happened, but it's difficult. I did go to the doctor for a repeat blood test and my levels are dropping significantly, which is good because it means I won't need a DNC or anything like that.

I had a long talk with my doctor and he said although it might seem like a bad thing that I lost the pregnancy, scientifically, it is a very good sign that I was pregnant at all. He said that is very positive for future attempts. One thing I thought was interesting was that he said when you use medical intervention to go from infertile to fertile, you experience the entire range of fertility, which includes women losing pregnancies very early on. That happens to many fertile women. He said there is always a possibility, however small, that we can get pregnant on our own so we won't stop trying naturally. He said we can try insemination a few more times if we want, but with Chris' numbers, it is difficult for him to say if it increases our chances 10% or 2% or anywhere inbetween. He did say that he thinks IVF is the right road for us, and he understands the financial burden of that commitment. He said he often feels guilty that he can't help out his patients more, but he did give us a $1,000 grant that is good for one year.

In light of all this news, Chris and I are trying to come up with a plan. I am someone who needs to know where we are heading. So we have decided to do some research on funding options for the next few months, but we are committed to finding a way to do one more cycle of IVF within the next year. We are not ready to give up on the process or on having a biological child.

I will continue to update the blog periodically as we move forward down whatever path we take. I cannot thank everyone enough for their kind words, prayers and support. While it has been difficult to tell people that we lost the pregnancy, we honestly can't imagine going through this without all of you. Thank you.